After a long of thoughts, here I decided to open up some space for readers to “read” my personalities and probably increase your skeptisms! 😕
Middle of November marks the first duedate for my hire purchase under new variation agreement after the six months moratorium programme ended – for individuals, which end up giving another extended nine years hire purchase loan with “half price” monthly installments. ☹️
It means another starting from strach with this unprecedented pandemic covid-19 while my life plan twelve years ago didn’t work out the way I planned (even during the years, some adjustments have been made) and still, my life progression is stagnant.☹️
Looking back my journey throughout 30 years of life, I think I have done my best (at that time) with my surrounding (neither online nor offline) capabilities, effective positive influence and communication.
As we going to recession (I hope not), my latest employment ended on the final day of the said moratorium ie 30 September 2020 which means another challenges that I need to back up my life plan.
As much as 30 years old may sound as “tua” to some people, my energy to pick up the shattered pieces of broken heart has been slowing down my “I used to be in my early 20’s”. And yes, the mantra “When you feel like quiting, remember why you started” really worked in those days. Now, the mantra seems disappeared in a snap! 😭
For some people, they treat “this journey” as a marathon that everybody running towards the trophy. But I am not and I cannot work that way, with that mindset. That’s not good for my mental health. Oh else, probably my trophy was different level from anybody else which probably my trophy is easy to them and vice versa. Who knows? 🤷🏼♀️
Last words, I hope this Covid-19 ends faster so that other people that going through hardships harder than me can live, eat and get better.
Thank you.
Dee To Deep 